★ Entry |
About |
Board |
Credit ★
1
It's another morning as I see a thin ray of light shining through the blinds. I look to my left. He's still there, eyes tightly closed. We settled another argument again last night. It was painful to find out about the truth and I swear I was so mad. I was so mad I cried.
Because God, I love him so much. When he does something wrong, I end up covering things up for him. When it's his fault, I end up taking the blame, so no one can lay a single finger. People keep telling me that he's not worth my love, he's never worth my time. Yes, he loves me, everybody knows that but I don't know, there's just something in whatever he's doing that keeps hurting me no matter how I try to deny it. We can never run away from pain. He hurts me everyday and he keeps doing it, thinking that I'm okay with it. The truth is, I'm not.
But at the end of the day, we always end up forgiving the people that we love.
And that's how I bear with him. I sigh, thinking of how we end up like this; wasted but happy. But are we? Are we really happy? I smile a bit and then I get up until I feel my wrist being grabbed by a huge hand. I turn to see him, eyes still closed with his hand connected to mine.
"Come back here," he mumbles almost inaudibly. I roll my eyes but he pulls me back into his arms. He buries his face into my hair and I can feel him smiling in my hair. "Are you okay now baby?"
I'm not.
"Y- yeah." I say through my gritted teeth. I keep my eyes shut, hoping that not a single tear can escape from my eyes. I feel his thumb sliding around my wrist.
"I love you, you know that." I nod when he says that. He tightens his hug and we shift. Now he's facing me. His thumb slides across my cheek and I realize that he's wiping a tear that I never realize had fallen. "Why are you crying?" he asks, his eyebrows furrow as he speaks.
I give him a thin line of smile and cling my arms around his neck. I pull myself in closer that my lips start to touch his bare chest. "It's nothing, I'm just sleepy. Let's get back to sleep, shall we?" I lie.
1
It's another morning as I see a thin ray of light shining through the blinds. I look to my left. He's still there, eyes tightly closed. We settled another argument again last night. It was painful to find out about the truth and I swear I was so mad. I was so mad I cried.
Because God, I love him so much. When he does something wrong, I end up covering things up for him. When it's his fault, I end up taking the blame, so no one can lay a single finger. People keep telling me that he's not worth my love, he's never worth my time. Yes, he loves me, everybody knows that but I don't know, there's just something in whatever he's doing that keeps hurting me no matter how I try to deny it. We can never run away from pain. He hurts me everyday and he keeps doing it, thinking that I'm okay with it. The truth is, I'm not.
But at the end of the day, we always end up forgiving the people that we love.
And that's how I bear with him. I sigh, thinking of how we end up like this; wasted but happy. But are we? Are we really happy? I smile a bit and then I get up until I feel my wrist being grabbed by a huge hand. I turn to see him, eyes still closed with his hand connected to mine.
"Come back here," he mumbles almost inaudibly. I roll my eyes but he pulls me back into his arms. He buries his face into my hair and I can feel him smiling in my hair. "Are you okay now baby?"
I'm not.
"Y- yeah." I say through my gritted teeth. I keep my eyes shut, hoping that not a single tear can escape from my eyes. I feel his thumb sliding around my wrist.
"I love you, you know that." I nod when he says that. He tightens his hug and we shift. Now he's facing me. His thumb slides across my cheek and I realize that he's wiping a tear that I never realize had fallen. "Why are you crying?" he asks, his eyebrows furrow as he speaks.
I give him a thin line of smile and cling my arms around his neck. I pull myself in closer that my lips start to touch his bare chest. "It's nothing, I'm just sleepy. Let's get back to sleep, shall we?" I lie.
